I was on Instagram.
I don’t know. Well, except for the fact that it’s become part of my life now.
Anyway, I was on Instagram, scrolling through timelines and such. Looking at cool pictures of cool people and their cool lives.
Then my eye caught that funny plus sign IG puts at the top right corner of your page, showing you friends they’ve suggested.
Even though I didn’t want more friend suggestions, I headed over there anyway.
And started scrolling.
And I stumbled on a profile of someone I know. In fact, I used to know this guy pretty darn well. And I couldn’t resist, I simply had to check out his profile.
First, I was excited. “He’s doing so well!” I thought. Then I went green. “Five thousand followers?!” Then I went even greener when I saw a particular photo of him and this cute looking chic with dimples and my crazy head just had to make me read the caption. What should have been an “awwww” turned into a disappointed “Wow.”
And I had to catch myself there.
Cos my mind started spinning out of control and unraveling in the most unattractive and unpleasant fashion, and doubts I didn’t even know I had about myself started to pop up. I started to wonder what if I hadn’t walked away (darn, I had to go and give myself away now!)?
But I remembered a Psalm of David, and it put me at peace. He said, I do not concern myself with things that are too lofty for me to understand. My soul is quiet within me.
It is too lofty a thing to understand the why’s and wherefores of relationships (even for a complicated thinker like me!), and truly, the answers aren’t all in our reach. Sometimes it’s better not to concern yourself with the pain of doubt and what-ifs. Instead, wean your soul from trouble and lift it up to God.
As I had to do in that second so I could be overwhelmed instead by His majestic love and the beauty of my future, blessed by the righteousness of the faith of Christ.